This about sums up whats wrong with me.

I still think of suicide despite being on antidepressants, dating like 3 differant guys at once cause none of them feel right, my friends dislike me, I keep buying them presents in an attempt to keep them, im about 20 lbs heavier than I was in november and I havent been to the gym in months, I have almost no money in my account and im withdrawing from my savings to pay for booze, I havent registered for classes yet cause im lazy and hate my life, and I cant find a job because I dont have the motivation to apply anywhere.

So, enjoy your life, everybody. :)

The date is March 20th. I wanted it to be on the ides of march, but that’s a bit too soon and besides premonitions should not be fiddled with. So, save the date.

And spend it doing something you love.

I can have anything I want for the next month and a half, but the caveat is that it can never be anything that makes me happy. This is what the decent into hell looks like. Please, please please please, never follow my path.